Updated: Mar 28, 2021
On Gina Minardi's podcast, "Spaces Between," I spoke about my attraction to unavailable men and my ongoing process of changing this pattern.
I was used to a push-pull feeling in relationship, challenge, unpredictability. Love wasn't readily given to me, I had to earn it. I never really felt comfortable, but it was exciting and stimulating.
Changing these patterns of attraction is complicated. Now that I'm in a healthy, available, loving relationship, I find ways to push it away.
But I'm realizing I don't need to work to receive love and I don't need to create drama in my life. Life serves up enough.
My 4-Steps to "manifesting" a loving, available partner:
Of course, this was in addition to years of inner work to let go of what I "thought" I needed in my life in order to be happy. I was 40 years old, divorced, dating unavailable men, and had 18 frozen eggs.
What's a girl to do?
I re-wrote my narrative by finding love, purpose, identity, and connection in other ways beyond dating. I deepened my friendships, my spiritual practices. I birthed a business, I created a beautiful home, and I became comfortable with silence & solitude.
The final piece was this manifestation process, which was inspired by my friend @astroccult.
I met my partner 2 months later. ❤️
Note: For the photo wall, you can use pictures of celebrity or fictional couples who inspire you. Some of my favorites are Michelle & Barack and Coach T & Tami from "Friday Night Lights."
Listen to the full interview on Gina Minardi's podcast, "Spaces Between."